just chillin' and pondering

In Austin and hanging out with my family. I have worked out twice since i got here yesterday, and it feels amazing. The drive was decent. I got to think a lot and i bought some natural anxiety reliever....so no anxiety attacks. although, i almost got one after i talked to kyle.

his "stance" is that he never meant for this to happen. he never wanted to get a divorce just a separation. can't even tell you how many times between him and his dad i heard " get your shit and move back to Austin".

he told me he was done and he was ready to let go of our relationship. he also told my mother and his mother the same thing. he even sent a mass texr message to his friend's saying that "we are getting a divorce". so i called my mom and dad and we got a uhaul...and we "got my shit and moved it into a storage unit in Austin". i threw out half of my belongings...it was so freeing.

i am not going to "separate" after 6 months....come on. i am going to rehash alot of our relationship on this blog. it may sound like whining....if you don't like it...don't read it. this is my healing.

also, some may wander why i would even dare to air out my dirty laundry. first of all, i am tired of telling the same stories over and over again. secondly, i like baring my soul. i have never hidden myself and even though this is embarrassing for me...i HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE. and frankly i care less and less what people think of me.